Ok, I am on facebook. I have a number of friends on there. A good number of those are from high school. What really bothers me is that I have asked a couple of them to have lunch or something to get together with them to catch up and I have been ignored. I have no way of knowing if it was on purpose or not but what the hell?
Yes I was the social outcast in high school. Home life was not the greatest. By the time I was in high school I had lost one set of grand-parents and my mother. I have a neurological disorder that causes co-ordination issues. I couldn’t play sports. None of the classmates gave a shit. Many of the decided that I was a good person to pick on…
The few friends I did have, well I have not heard from some of them sense a year after school. The others who are on Facebook do not respond when I ask if they want to go to lunch or something. For the love of Pete people, we were classmates. Our school has 270 students in 9-12th grades. We knew everyone by first name. We know who was dating who, usually before the two involved did.
Well sense then I went to college. It was much better and I made a few friends there too. One of those people is still one my best friends, helped her raise her two kids who are now adults.
I don’t go out much because I don’t like people. Many times I find that people are just too damn selfish and don’t care about others. I don’t like to drink. I may have a drink once every few months. My last drink was a margarita about a week ago, before that.. it was last May or June. So I don’t get to go out and meet people much. There are not very many females in IT. There are a couple of ladies I’d consider dating at work if I thought they were available, but any time I’ve tried to engage in conversation they didn’t seem interested in talking.
The roommates youngest was at the house the other day and saw my Senior Memory’s book and saw a couple of pictures in it… one with me and a classmate. He response was, “That is you? Why didn’t you have a girlfriend you were cute?” The only answer I have to that is that the people I went to school with didn’t give a damn… they saw the lump on my chin and that I was not as co-ordinate as everyone so they didn’t want to take the chance. And, no, it is not something they can just remove. It is genetic.
I have a conscience and that is a real pain in the ass some times. I’d love to be able to find someone to date and such but I can’t right now. Most of my paycheck goes to helping making the bills and such at the house. And we are waiting on the mortgage company to get off their asses and give an answer on the refinance sense the roommate is now on perm disability. No, we did not get beyond our means, this is a medical condition that has arisen and nothing can be done. I can’t move out and leave the roommate stranded. My conscience won’t let me do it.
Now I am an IT professional and becoming even better known in the industry as being a person who knows his shit, and I am still learning more and loving it. If I don’t know then I’ll look it up. I also am not one to lie and give some bullshit story. I’ll try and give a straight answer and get the problem solved.
I don’t date because I just don’t trust people enough to ask someone I don’t know out. I don’t do the dating sites because well… I don’t feel like paying $29-59 a month for their “service”. I tried one out for a year when they gave a special at $15 a month. I didn’t have any luck at all on it. Part of that we because I was driving a semi and was never home, but still.
So what the fuck is going on with the world today?
No I won’t ask a stranger out on a date. I want to know if they are at least single at first, then if they at least have a brain on their shoulders.
And, damn it, I need to find time to exercise more… I need to lose about 20lbs.
Ok.. that is my WTF rant that means nothing…
Have fun 